As you move, Life moves.

What a productive, awesome day!

So far, I have gotten 20 out of 29 things on my to do list done! Woohoo! I expect to be at 23 by the time I go to sleep. I will get the rest of them done tomorrow & Tuesday. Ahhhhhhh. I feel like I am finally getting it all together & things are starting to gel & move in an amazing way in my life.

I have come up with another tag line as well, "Life Moves As u Move.". When we take action, when we shift something in ourselves, when we make a commitment to changing something holding us back, life will cooperate with us. If we do nothing & continue to do nothing, life will respond.

I did not do an email last week because I was cleaning up clutter in my house that just needed to go. Very symbolic. Cleaning clutter out of my house is cleaning clutter out of my life.

Many more big changes in my life for me during the last few months. It is becoming absolutely the norm in my life. I have not really felt ok since Bella got sick. I also did nothing for my business for many months and I am now paying for it, but I am taking action, big action. I have recently partnered with an incredible organization, Achieve Fitness Systems, and I am super excited about where my life and my business will go with them on my team. It is a team/a family of fitness & wellness professionals coming together to offer more than any of us can individually and I get wonderful, affirming, positive coaching from the CEO, which is helping me move past all of my sadness and inertia and start to see & feel possibilities again.

I am embarking on a big, new, exciting speaking and presenting aspect of my business. I am adding many residual streams of income by learning to and getting in the habit of thinking even more outside the box. I will be creating my own Body of Work playing with aspects of Feminine power, Embodiment and Movement. I'm also creating another very powerful Body of Work with an amazing man about Integration & Embodiment of the Yin & Yang-Feminine & Masculine.

In many ways, this is the time of my life with the most change, the most excitement of possibility, the most I've believed and known it is all changing and I have the tools & the support & the knowledge to do it because of the love & support of so many amazing people. In many ways, it is the most terrifying, the most exhausting, the biggest utterly not in control Surrendered time in my life. Dichotomy. Actually very much the Ultimate Balance of Masculine & Feminine.

I will continue to move forward. My body & my spirit will heal, as I continue to take care of myself. I know I am being carried & I know Bella had to leave me for me to have space to create any of this. And...

I can and I will...Watch Me....
My Goodness I am tired, I just need to rest, please take over for me, I know u got this, thank u.

Things I tell clients over and over (and over!)!

The things I find myself telling clients over and over and over!

So I've noticed several things that I find myself saying to my people repeatedly during a personal training session and in general. I decided I should write them down and share them w everyone so I can help even more people to connect their minds and their bodies as well as to change their bodies!

1). Sit back with ur butt first, then bend ur knees-most people sit and do squats with their knees and with bending over only. I teach a specific way of moving that gets people actually engaging and strengthening their glutes rather than just stressing their knees and/or their backs. This is important for SO many things: decreasing back pain & knee pain, strengthening leg muscles so they support knees and backs, having a nice butt, etc!

2). Pull the bottom pointy ends of ur shoulder blades together & down-most people hold a lot of tension in their necks, traps (the muscles running between the neck and the shoulders) & shoulders and tend to hunch forward on top of that. They do everything from the upper upper back, traps and shoulders. I teach people to use and strengthen the muscles in the lower upper back so that their shoulder blades are sitting where they r supposed to be. This takes huge amounts of stress and usually a lot of pain out of those over-used areas! It improves their posture 100%, which in and of itself makes their entire body look different!

3). Navel to Spine-in most people, their Transverse Abdominus doesn't fire properly. This muscle, (the underneath layer of abdominal muscle, which literally supports the entire body from it's center) can only engage with the navel pulling in and down into the lower back, like an ice cream scoop is scooping out the belly. It is very subtle & challenging for most people to learn how to do. I teach people the difference between this and just sucking in their stomach, BIG DIFFERENCE! I have people paying attention to and keeping it engaged throughout their entire workouts. When people do this, it supports their lower back, improves the strength of their entire core, improves low back issues and changes the way their entire body looks!

So those r just 3, but probably the most used phrases that I say in all of my core conditioning classes and with all of my one-on-one fitness, movement & Personal Training clients. Enjoy! Play w them urself and as always, let me know if u have questions, comments or feedback!

Non-Stop and Magical

This week has been non-stop and magical in so many ways: deep & loving women's circle, huge networking event & dinner w one of my besties, expansive healing group, dinner out, possibility charged business meeting with a man who is going to help me get where I am going, much needed massage and wonderful connections with so many wonderful people.

Everything in my life is changed and changing. I can feel it.  The things I was deeply, in the core of my being, worried about, I have let go of.   I know without any doubt that it all IS & that it is all unfolding, period.  Everything I've worked for in every aspect-physically, mentally, emotionally, spiritually-is happening & unfolding.

The key here is that I had to get to absolute, complete willingness to lose everything I "have". I am not really in control anyway.  It's all perfect, even if I don't know it.  All I have to do is do my part, be an instrument, allow and know.  All week, I have been remembering that the Angel Card I pulled on New Year's Eve was WILLINGNESS.  It could not have been more true.  I had to go with so many things and events put in front of me.  So many things happened that I would never have wanted or could have had a clue were going to happen, so many things I had to completely release.  After this lesson, this big piece of growth for me, then and only then would I be on the track I was born to be on, whether I knew it or could do it myself without all of the work I've done in every aspect of my life.

We are multi-dimensional beings.  We are the physical, mental, emotion and spiritual.   It is impossible for us to not be, whether we believe it or not.   So own it, be it, be you, be the Big You. Allow, accept, quite fighting yourself.   Once u really and truly do, the payoff is much more than you can imagine and bring about by doing the things you are doing.  Trust me, "Let Go, Let God", on a very profound level, is real.   I see it in so many of my friends and know it within myself.  Namaste dear ones.   Namaste.

So how is YOUR posture?

So how is YOUR posture?

I have SO many people tell me their posture is horrible and they want to improve it. Hmmmmmmm, funny thing, I specialize in helping people improve their posture, decrease back pain, and change their bodies in many many ways with awareness and targeted corrective movement.

Not to mention that your body language, (posture being the biggest, most obvious and seen part of body language) communicates so much about you to anyone who sees you. We unconsciously or even consciously form opinions about people from what we see, good or bad.

So Y pay attention to posture and body language? Who cares what other people think about you, right? You know who u are and you like you just fine. Right? Well....maybe not so much.

First of all, your posture actually does reflect how u feel about yourself. For example, one posture seen pretty often these days is one of people with very rounded shoulders and flat back. Many many people these days feel very beaten down and consistently over-stressed and it shows up in this posture. It also reflects how many people spend their lies sitting down, slumped over at their desks and/or behind their computers, which simply adds to the above mentioned.

Secondly, The physiology of ur body effects u mentally and emotionally.
What you do with your body, in any way, effects how you feel. Bad posture also effects circulation, muscle balance, etc., which effect so many things, including causing pain, which we all know effects people mentally and emotionally.

Thirdly, Ur body shape changes w ur posture. Do an experiment: stand in front of a full length mirror. Stand with your shoulders completely rounded over and your pelvis tucked under. Look what it makes your body look like. Hmmmmm, does your belly pooch out? Do u look like u need to lose 10 lbs, like u r sad, older than u r, have no muscle tone, etc? Now, stand up tall and let your shoulder blades slide down your back toward your hips and your chest open. Hmmmmmmm, do u look like u just lost 10 lbs? Do u look happier? Do you look younger? Hmmmmmmmm.

So posture really does matter, for many many reasons.

What are you doing to improve yours?

Don't cheat yourself. Be all that u can be. Feel as great as u can feel. Let others clearly see how amazing u r! Don't hide u, u deserve to be showcased and to shine brightly! Start with your posture, it will make all of the difference in the world for u, for ur body and for ur spirit.

Profound Knowing, Sensing, Feeling

I had a very profound day.

So, as I sit here with mellow music on and candles burning all around me, I reflect  back on what was so profound about today.  As it is with the profound, it is challenging to put into words.  It is a feeling, a knowing, a sensation in my body.  I will do my best:

It was a very productive day;  I scoured my refrigerator (which I cannot remember the last time I did that, felt really good), baked all morning (peanut butter bites made w chick peas, PB, honey and raisins-quite tasty actually! And gluten free, egg free bread, yum), vacuumed my house, washed my sheets & comforter, etc.  it was a productive day! 

It was also a very profound day.  While I cleaned the fridge, I had on the Nia routine I am going to learn next.  I love the music, it has the sound of the Native Americans, is very primal while also being upbeat and often fast-paced.  As I watched the video, I saw many of my friends on the current Nia Trainer Faculty.  It was my dream for 13 years to be a Nia Trainer and teach people to teach Nia.  A little over a year ago, I had this awareness that I didn't want to do this, my "life's dream".  I had no idea where this came from, it just showed up and everything surrounding me was supporting that it was not the path for me. So, I consulted with a few trusted people in my life; one very much in Nia, one who used to be very entrenched in the Nia world and is not at all now, and one who has never even done Nia.  I wanted insight and mirroring for what I was seeing, feeling & sensing in my body.  I simply needed and wanted support and love, not anyone to tell me what I should do, that was my decision and I know that any decision I make, it is important for me to call on the people in my life to assist me in seeing clearly, as to not fool myself and/or make a giant misguided mistake.

As I watched the video, I had no pangs of wishing I had been there.  No pangs of wanting to be immersed in that world.  For u see, Nia was my box.  My cocoon encasing my butterfly, if u will.  Being a trainer was my box.  It was my story I had held sacred for so long.  Now, it no longer fit, even more so now.  Saying that The changes I have made in the last year are great in a gross understatement.  The changes I have made r profound and they resonate on a profound level within me.  I really am a different person, I feel and know it in my bones and in my soul and have it mirrored back to me in many ways every day.

I'm about to embark on rolling out a "new piece of work for me".  I also had more come to me today about what I will include and what I will not while cleaning, watching and listening to the video.  It is A playshop integrating Feminine Power, Movement and Embodiment.  It is a big step AND it is just the first step on whatever is coming next for me.  I just sense and know (even more so today, in an unexplainable way), that even more is going to shift, change, transform and grow.  The level at which I am being invited to do work within myself is profound, big and unimaginable...even more so last year, not even a glimpse of it, and yet here I stand.  It takes everything in me to focus and allow and do my work as to keep moving forward as I am intended to be doing. 

Now, realize, this decision last year was the exact opposite of comfortable for me.  It was a leap of faith in pretty much every sense of the word AND it was necessary for my next piece.  I didn't consciously know this then, I have always known that everything into my life led into everything else, but had no idea where I was going, I just trusted that this was my way...

How many times have u stopped urself from doing something because it was uncomfortable?  U didn't go to the gym because u didn't have time with all of the other busyness u had going on?  U didn't really examine where ur piece in a misunderstanding was?  U didn't listen to a gut feeling because to put it into play with whatever it was regarding, would be really messy and uncomfortable, for u, for others, for many?

If I hadn't listened to myself and my body, I would not be entering a new phase for me.  I wouldn't have the amazing tribe I have around me now.  I wouldn't be growing in leaps and bounds in every way imaginable.  Listen to u.  Take care of u.  Be YOU!  The "uncomfortable" path might seem uncomfortable now, but just think what it will be like in a few years when your SOUL is extremely uncomfortable with where u ARE...all because u wanted to be comfortable and really, it created even less because u stopped urself.

Listen to ur knowing.  Listen to ur body.  Honor every part of u, even and especially if u have no idea what and where it is coming from.  YOU really know...

She loved life and it loved her right back!

"She loved life and it loved her right back!"

I love that saying!  Have u ever noticed that when u r in a great mood, making eye contact,  smiling and saying hi to everyone u see, everything in life seems just a little easier and more magical?  When we exude love and happy, everyone and everything is attracted to us. 

When we go thru our lives in this space, we are asking the Universe to love us back, even if we don't know it.  People want to give when we are in this space, it's extremely attractive, period.  It's a space of the feminine, allowing, loving, acceptance and gratitude and everyone feels safe around this and wants to be a part of what u have!  Everyone and everything is attracted to it.

It's just like Fishing-do u just stick a pole out there at the fish?  No!  U hang out and attract them.  They r attracted to the shiny object.  U r being a shiny object and energy (people, things, situations...) can't help but be attracted! 

Now see, the problem is that many of us live in the opposite space.  We live in fear, scarcity, roadblocks, and lost in our heads and thoughts, never being fully present and open for life to love us right back.

The flow is going to STOP if u r in FEAR!!!!  So let go of it!

When we r in fear, everything is contracted.  We have pain and tension in our bodies, feelings of lack and defeat and thoughts of how we can't _______________ (fill in the blank with your choice of what u tell urself)!

I invite u to try it on.  Shift ur feeling to one of love and gratitude and abundance; knowing and trusting and loving as ur go to place u live from, instead of the default drama space u revert to automatically.  Notice how ur body is.  Notice how all of ur feelings shift and change and u r much more able to be present and right here, right now, instead of always lost in the thinking thinking thinking distraction that is such a habit for so many of us.

It's just like working out, the more u do it and the more u practice, the stronger u get and the better u r at it!

So flex ur love, allowance, surrender, gratitude and receptivity muscles!  Just like the physical muscles, u will reap big benefits from the commitment to urself!  Now, stay w it and just notice how when u love life, it loves u right back!

Surrender is an interesting thing

Surrender is an interesting thing.

Since my Bella died, I have been sitting in this absolute fear because of money and how I can pay my bills, all of them. I am 2 mortgages behind, hundreds in bills, credit cards and have so much around my home that I want to do. I didn't spend that much on B, since we didn't do surgery or chemotherapy for extended periods, it was all spent on healings (for both of us actually), herbs, second opinions and other options searching, an animal communicator and a very expensive holistic vet. It was only around $1000, not that much in the grand scheme of things, and very necessary for this profound experience and process my Baby Girl and I just passed thru, but it seemed to throw me into an absolute complete tailspin financially.

I was in this place of absolute and complete on my knees terror and then I shifted into, "ok, so what if I lose my house? I love my house and my Angel and her memories r here and in her backyard, but it's ok, I will survive, she will go w me, her memories will come to me whenever I choose them to. So maybe I have to file bankruptcy, ok, so I start over again, fine, I've done it once, I can do it again, so be it. If this is how it is supposed to be, then so be it. "

This whole on my knees surrender to "ok, so I lose my home and start over again" took me to questioning pretty much everything I think I know. What is love? What do I really want in my life? What do I know? What if everything I know is BS & not real? Why do I struggle financially and feel like I have to do it myself and have some idea of what it's supposed to look like and how I create my dreams and call abundance into my life? What if the idea of what I want in my primary relationship is bullshit and THAT is really some old program that has been put on me and I don't even know it? What if the answers to everything I want in my life r right in front of me and I am being too stubborn (uh, again, never denied I can be stubborn, AND that's an old program my dad gave me) and holding onto what I think SHOULD be?! There r no shoulds, right?! Why do I feel like I have to create my life and my business and my abundance (financially) the hard way and by working my butt off? What if everything I think I know, I really don't. I'm completely open and willing to learn. In fact, I was just remembering this week that on New Year's Eve, the Angel Card I drew was "willingness". This year has been true to that, I have had more unexpected everything show up than one could possibly imagine!

So meanwhile, I had a client purchase a pkg for 15 sessions. I kept watching and watching for it to drop into my account. It never did. I waited for a week, it never did. I mentioned it to her and she researched it. Her statement said it went thru. SO! All of my credit card payments that go thru my website go thru PayPal. Even if ppl just use a credit card and don't use a PayPal account, it still goes thru PayPal. So, I look at this confirmation email that I got saying her payment went thru. I got their number and called them. I FIND OUT that I have a PayPal account. I had no idea I had a PayPal account! I had $5769 in that account! What?! So, come to find out, for the last year, every payment made on my website has gone to this account. What!? I never itemize all of of my deposits, I just thought they were going into my account, as I thought we had set up, and I simply always know how much I have by only using cash or debit and mobile banking to check my balance. Ha! Well, needless to say, I started breathing and called almost everyone I know! Everyone I know who loves me and has supported me in so many ways. I can now pay my mortgage up to date as well as all of my bills and probably even pay off a credit card, the balances
r not very high. Breathing. Took myself to Glenwood Springs for the night (still finagled a SMOKIN deal on the room, heehee), had the dinner I wanted, bought myself some nicer sunglasses, all without mortal fear and/or guilt. You have to understand how different this is for me in comparison to the last 4 months, I didn't spend anything except on Bella and was completely focused on her and us, because I never knew what I was going to need to do next, or how long we were going to be doing it. I was even worse after, for this last month. So, inhale exhale, surrender, expansion.

NOW, the lesson in this: absolute and complete and total surrender to the Divine and what is and not just me controlling it and thinking I have the answers, or even know what it should look like is the only way. In the last week, I literally questioned EVERYTHING. Especially what I want in my life and thinking that I know what I want in love, or even what love is. I haven't really known what love is for much of my life. My mother died when I was very young and my father went into complete shutdown. My Bella taught me what love really is. She is my example and my greatest teacher. I have had the realization that she taught me what my mother was supposed to teach me and that she created this process of her leaving me to get me to this place. To love myself as I loved her, to trust, even bigger-what surrender really is, what love is, how much of it I really have in my life, what I have right next to me that I am not acknowledging, how much unconditional love I have around and supporting me from all directions.

I had been DEATHLY terrified of losing Bella since I got her, from second one, I loved her so much. Maybe it's because on my soul level, I knew that the greatest lesson of my life would be involved and I would die to so many things. I am cellularly changed. I understand life, life and death, love, surrender, everything, so much more and differently. Before it was a concept that we r all going to die and I have to live my life. Now, I understand it so much differently. I have to live my life, for ME, not anyone else and how I want it, not for anyone else's ideas or things they tell me it should look like. What is REALLY true for me and what am I resisting simply to be RIGHT and for what anybody/thing has told me?!

Where r u resisting within yourself? What r u holding onto in your body? What's stopping u? Do u have any old ideas about anything in your life that r holding u back? Feel into it, ask yourself, ask your body. How can I help and support you? Take excellent care of u, u r the only u u have!

Life without my Bella

I had a client cancel on me this morning. I decided to use the time to sit in my backyard (instead of being busy around my house filling up the time picking up, as I normally do), be quiet and work on my focus and goals for my life, my blog, and creating space for whatever grandness is coming my way that I don't have an idea of. So I sit in contemplation and solace, with my water feature on, enjoying and loving being in my own sanctuary and piece of nature away from everything. I would love to take off and go be in the mountains, away from everything, for a weekend or a week, but I cannot do that right now, so I am being with and loving what I have in my life and with me right now. My fountain gives me the sound of running water, so I have the sound effects, and everyone can connect with Mother Nature, where ever they happen to be at that second. Be right here, right now.

You see, my Bella Angel Girl and I lost our fight with cancer almost 3 weeks ago.   She was such a big part of me and my life, and now I am left with finding my way and building the rest of my life without her.   For the last 4 months, I was her caretaker and we spent every second that was at all possible together.  I took her with me any place that it was at all possible: she went to my studio many many times, she went to outside meetings with me, we walked our favorite trail in the mountains together until she just stopped one day on our way up to the higher elevations and flat out told me she couldn't do it, I laid w her on the floor-loving her and praying for healing as I had the 3 other times her life was threatened and we beat it.   For anyone who didn't know my Bella, she was a lover and a fighter.  She was a so sweet, beautiful, strong, amazing being who loved loved loved everyone she met.  She was about as close to a reflection of me in a dog body as there could possibly be.   I really couldn't imagine me and my life without her.   So, she gave me lots of notice, to make sure we were ready, both of us, but mainly me.  We were both so tired by the end.

This process has been such a huge journey for me:  I started it holding on tighter than I ever have before.   I began to understand surrender, I integrated a big understanding of surrender into my body and being.  I came to understand where the balance of surrender and Fighting w every ounce of Momma Bear and Love I have, is.   I finally experienced being able to be with the thing that absolutely terrified me.  I let go.   I am learning how to integrate still feeling her beautiful spirit and letting go of the sadness of not having her body with me.

So, here I sit, in our backyard that she loved so so much, with my boy dog wandering around, helping me so much just with his presence, moving on with creating my life.  What were my big dreams before I started this?  Where was I going?  Who am I without my B here in physical form with me?   I must choose to find out, to remember.  She wouldn't want me to just sit and be sad and lost.  She knew I am amazing and she wanted me to love me as much as I loved her.   So, I am moving forward.  I can see her with me.  I feel her.  Along with my tears, my heart is so happy and thankful and expanded when I look at her pictures including the so sweet photo shoot we did weeks before she died.   I am finding and recreating me and my life from this pivotal point forward.

So, I'm back. You will hear from me more. :). I hope to see all of you more! The Dance continues and I look forward to all of you being my partners in this divine piece we are creating. Much love...

Gratitude Beyond Gratitude in My Life

My message today:

Sometimes I turn on the Joel Osteen Service on Sunday mornings. Sometimes he is speaking right directly to me, sometimes it's just a nice reminder or lovely positive message for me.

Today he was speaking right directly at me. His bottom line today was "Seek God in everything in your life. Say thank you for everything in your life, even, and especially, the mundane. If you seek God and stay in Gratitude, many many blessings will come to u, far greater then u can imagine or make happen by yourself."

I have decided this week to let go of a very toxic situation in my life. I have been holding on to this situation for many, many, many reasons (some of which I don't even realize consciously), not the smallest being that I make $1200/mo from this situation. This past week, I decided no more. I am trusting, asking for and open to receiving whatever shows up now to help me. I fully know that whatever shows up will not look like anything I can come up with or create all on my own, I'm going to need many things I have no control over to happen.

I also know I need to be thankful for what I do have in my life, and I have a lot. So so so many things have transpired for me to let me get to where I am now. So many people have come into my life in a BEYOND random way that has helped me get where I am today. I have much bigger dreams and aspirations and know I am on the road to much bigger things than I could have EVER have let myself imagine or even begin to step into doing and being even a year ago.

On the very same day, I found out that my Bella's cancer was making an appearance in her sweet little body again. Since then we have been on a healing mission. I now know that we have months, probably many months, instead of the days or weeks that I had feared and my vet had thought due to the pain she was in that day. She is now and Rollin along again, and I have been reminded ONCE AGAIN, that we are given gifts in our lives, and we need to be grateful for them, not take them for granted, in any way, shape or form.

So his message spoke directly to me: Seek God, Be in gratitude for everything, ASK for and RECEIVE miracles and profound, unbelieveable happenings in my life, ALLOW them to show up, to KNOW that things I can't even imagine will show up if I trust Spirit that will not evolve and happen if I go into fear in any way...to Stay in Love, because Love and connection and trust and being grateful for my Life, is really all there really is.

Fulfilled or Comfortable?

We live in a society that Is dedicated to our comfort , whether it is fulfilling or not. NOW, Consider the possibility that the Universe, God, Goddess, Your Higher Self, whatever You call it, is dedicated to your fulfillment, whether it's comfortable or not.

Think about that. How often has it happened that you fulfilled a dream, built a marriage, changed your body, created a business or anything else in your life that u really really wanted and that gave u the biggest happiness, depth and growth in your life and it was really really easy? If ever, then GOOD FOR YOU! You were completely ready for it, in so many ways. However, do we ever truly know what happened previously, internally or in life circumstances, to get us really ready for it? How do we know that the last big, hard challenge in our life wasn't what created the opportunity for that particular thing to be so incredibly easy?

I'm in yet another situation, well, several, that require a very challenging practice for me: patience, allowing, letting it be and unfold as it will, not as I want it to. I know it's unfolding, I know it will be beautiful, still challenging, still work but EVERYTHING I am being asked to wait and hold space for will be worth it. Whether it be relationship, body, current business, future business and new aspect of work that I am creating and growing into, this is all big, big stuff for me, now and in the bigger scope of my life. It's not exactly comfortable, but I LOVE the challenge and the growth and potential that is being created, germinated and fulfilled within my body, soul and being.

When have you let the discomfort stop you? When have you taken the easy way out? Have you regretted it and known that it could have been so much more? Have you felt like there was so much more to it and you owe it to yourself to follow that knowing and follow it thru? Then go there! Don't cheat yourself! Get everything that you can possibly get for yourself! Do it, take the first or the last step...where ever you are on the journey...and ALLOW your knowing, your body, your very being, to be your guide.

Butterfly...transformation

Butterfly...transformation...the butterfly goes thru 4 stages, the egg, the caterpillar, the larvae and the beautiful end result...the butterfly..birth the process, gather gather gather, ingest and digest information and knowledge, integrate it and come out on the other side something completely different...Transformation...the beautiful butterfly.

These r the steps to making any change in your life: Physical, Mental, Emotional, Spiritual.

Think about what has gone into Any change you have made in your life that has lasted. You had the idea. You gained the momentum. You researched and gathered facts, knowledge and information. You integrated and did whatever u needed to do to make the change and create the shift within yourself. You came out of the other side, Transformed!

No matter what your change, no matter what your own personal process and road to getting there, no matter what it took-months or days or minutes-the way to lasting change and Transformation are the same...noticing, making a change, making a decision, never looking back!

Take charge of your life. Take charge of your body. I choose. I decide.

transforming yourself into a strategic warrior in daily life

In Creating business or simply navigating daily life and all of it's challenges, "One of the 6 fundamental ideas you should aim for in transforming yourself into a strategic warrior in daily life:  worship Athena, not Ares. Athena was deemed by the Greeks to be the goddess of strategic warfare. Ares was the God of war in its direct and brutal form. The Greeks despised Ares and worshiped Athena, who always fought with the most intelligence and subtlety. Your interest in war is not the violence, the brutality, the waste of lives and resources, but the rationality and pragmatism it forces on us and the ideal of winning without bloodshed. The Ares figures of the world are actually quite stupid and easily misled. Using the wisdom of Athena, your goal is to turn the violence and aggression of such types against them, making their brutality the cause of their downfall. Like Athena, you are always one step ahead, making your moves more indirect. Your goal is to blend philosophy and war, wisdom in battle, into an unbeatable blend."-The 33 Strategies of War.

How cool is that?! Adds a whole different understanding to Feminine power, doesn't it?!  What does it mean to YOU?  “transforming yourself into a strategic warrior in daily life” fascinating.  come from strategy, asking, understanding, love, softness and flowing with what is to get what I want instead of forcing what I THINK it should be.  Taking down the opponent thru being centered and coming from your Hara and Love, rather than brute force...the Aikido Martial Arts aspect of Nia rather than the Taekwondo.  The people who function from this brutal place only are easily misled and do no actually function with the world and what is, but against it. “Using the wisdom of Athena, your goal is to turn the violence and aggression of such types against them, making their brutality the cause of their downfall. Like Athena, you are always one step ahead, making your moves more indirect. Your goal is to blend philosophy and war, wisdom in battle, into an unbeatable blend."  TOTALLY Aikido in Nia:  Spherical, centered, harmonious motion. Coming from the Yin, not Always the Yang.  As in Movement and Nia, all aspects must be balanced and welcomed, worked with-not against, that will simply cause imbalance, weakness and missed opportuities for growth and strength.

How do you conduct YOUR Life?  Do you come from balance or from one extreme or the other?  How do you take care of YOUR body, coming from Love to heal and change it or from Punishment and force?  Nothing will ever truly change and have lasting change if it is forced to do it...Choice, Asking, Receiving, Creating...

I knew it! Thank u for the confirmation!!

I knew it! Thank u for the confirmation!!

Every so often on a Sunday morning, I will happen upon a Joel Osteen broadcast. I did that this morning and what he was sharing stopped me dead in my tracks. Literally.

He was telling a story about a certain type of bamboo plant where the roots grow and flourish underground for 4 years and the plant doesn't really grow, at least nothing really appears to be happening. However, at the end of 4 years, the plant blooms and fast and is unbelievable in its growth!

He also told a biblical story about a woman who was gathering scraps and leftovers from a grain field/farm. The owner of the farm noticed her. He asked his workers to start leaving her grain to make it easy for her. They met and fell in love. She became his wife and thus became owner of the farm she had been gleaning scraps from. The lesson is that when u do your work, when you really do your work, your homework, whatever it takes, God will reward u with things BEYOND your imagination. People show up, often just one person shows up to help u get where u r going...situations are created...situations, projects, ideas, etc. that you have been working on manifest and manifest in ways that YOU never imagined possible.

I was laid off 4 years ago March 1st. 3/1/2009. I have been finding and creating real direction and focus in my business and in my life. I have been learning to navigate connections and relationships and networking. I have been learning what true, real personal power is then living and owning it in my life. I have been figuring out and creating my brand. I have been really owning and living what works for ME, TRULY JUST ME with eating and movement. I have been telling people, "Last year was about building relationships and connections. (the people who showed and, and I mean RANDOMLY AND OUT OF NOWHERE, as in running across parking lots to meet me because they had been manifesting meeting me and a maintenance man looking man happening to walk into the studio I was teaching and adopt me and completely help me in every way financially-including giving me a studio!). This year is about creating and doing whatever it takes to create my life and my brand and my business and the connection with my future business. Next year, it is just going to rock and roll and create, manifest and actualize! Woohoo!

Me happening upon Joel Osteen this morning was God/the Universe, whatever your word is, telling me I am right. This is exactly what is happening and I know it and I am right and on the right track and path. I love life.

Love your body. Love yourSelf. Love your life. Why do anything else? What good does that possibly do u?!

Are you willing to do whatever is needed to create what you want in your life?

My theme word for the year, as it came up New Year's Eve was WILLINGNESS.  What do I know?  Take it as it comes, flow with it, create within and with it, love, live, show up to the best of my ability, right here, right now.  Willingness, whatever it takes.

Are you willing to do whatever it takes to have the life you want to live?  To have the body you want to have?  To have the friendships you want to have, the primary relationship you want?  To create the work situation you desire?  Can you let go of your ideas and your control enough to allow things to actualize in your life?  If we hold on too tightly, we will choke any possibility of great things that we do not expect happening!  Often when I think I know something for sure, I am surprised.  It is put in my face over and over, what do I know?

When I am vulnerable and I take a chance... When I make a choice that empowers me and takes me closer, in some way, to what I am asking for in my life...when I let go and do my part to create what I want but I get out of the way and simply allow it to happen by staying focused and willing instead of trying to control and direct exactly what I think should happen, surprising and wonderful things/changes/results show up!

What are you keeping out of your life, Physically, Mentally, Emotionally or Spiritually?  What can you let go of that is keeping it out?  What can you invite in and ask for that will allow it to change?  Ask yourself, "Am I truly willing, truly willing to do what it takes to create what I truly want in my life, all ways, always?"

willingness

Letting go. It might not look like I thought it would look. Willingness. These seem to be the themes of my year, so far.

Lots of things seem to not be fitting anymore. Lots of things I thought I knew for sure are not as I expected in any way at all. I read the daily thought I get from an organization called "The School of Deepening." a few days ago and the subject was on "Thinking". It said, basically, when u think about something and play a situation over and over in your mind, it takes you out of your life and your experience and your flow. I appear to be being asked repeatedly to not think and to stay in the flow.

I'm in the transition process of: working with an amazing Coach, William Sumner, on fully stepping into my greatness; I am doing a food clean out after the holidays with wine, sugar, carbs and fat; I am in the process of ending a relationship that just isn't what I want, no matter how much i want it to be, that I have been involved in for the last 7-9 months, off and on; I am adding a whole new component to my business and hopefully my income making possibilities for the future; I am stepping into and loving the flow of the river and letting go of the fear that inevitably still pops up every once in a while. Lots of concious and unconcious discreating and letting go.

I strive to stay out of thinking about it all too much. I strive to go with what is presented to me and to stay with what feels good, light and effortless in my Body and Soul. I strive to trust above all, knowing that the Universe is ultimately responding to me and what I'm putting out there and doing..it is always my choice to show up and dance, no matter what, or to hide and shrink from fear of pain and failure.

I choose life. I choose love, gratitude and acceptance. I choose living my life fully, no matter what. No matter what I have to bring in, experience or let go of...