Listen, hear, feel, know, love

I've had an incredibly intense last two, or three-I'm not even sure at this point, weeks and I'm feeling like I'm just now coming out of the darkness, back into myself and back into my body!

I woke up Saturday morning feeling very uncomfortable in my own skin.  My body felt heavy.  It felt like there was just too much stagnant and just sitting there...like something has to change.  Like I've been through a lot, have some things in my life that aren't fitting and it's time to let it and them go.

So then I danced, then I taught a second class and finally started feeling somewhat normal, myself.  I feel more myself when teaching Nia than anywhere else in my life...

Taking care of your body and yourSelf is a balance.  It's knowing when you need to change something, it's listening to what your body is telling you, what your sensations are, what your feelings are, what works for you, what doesn't.     It's eating what you're Hungry for, but knowing if it's just to numb or comfort yourself or if you really want it because you really want it for you!  It's knowing when you need to move and when you need to be still.  It's really listening, hearing, paying attention, loving and knowing...

We all hold everything in our bodies, I think I might have some old stuff, some stuff I need to release, some things I need to shift and change and let go of.  Thinking I might do a 3 week cleanse.  Thinking I want to feel more comfortable in my skin, which tells me there's something in my life and in mySelf I'm uncomfortable with.  It's time for a change.  

What do I need?   What is here for me?  What am I telling myself?  How am I going to honor all of it, all of me?  It's always a process.  We are all always learning and growing and changing and shifting.  It's simply about learning to know and trust and love.

Love your Body, Love yourSelf, Love your Life...

I am working on a "Love your Body.  Love yourSelf.  Love your Life." event.  I need your help!

Please answer these questions:

Body:

1)  how do u feel about your body?

2)  how do u take care of your body?

3) how do u see your body?

Self:

1) how do u feel about yourSelf?

2) how do u take care of u?

3) how do u express your unique self?

Life:

1) how do u feel about your life?

2) how do you create what u want & need in your life?

3) how do u express u within your life?

I so appreciate your input on my blog, my learning and my thought processes today!!

Love. Live. Risk! Y not?!

Ahhhhh....downtime.  How long has it been since I had & took real, true downtime?  Months?!  Probably.  I believe in living my life.  I believe in grabbing every opportunity to enJoy mySelf & my Life, so I tend to fill every moment as much as I possibly can.  "Do I want to go have fun with you?!  Hell yeah!  Let's go play!".   Life is too short & we never know how long we really have.

My brother is the same way.  We figured out why a few years ago...our mother died when I was 9 & 3/4 and he had just turned 5, five days before she passed.  We decided together that is why we always "fit one more thing" in.  That is why we savor and take advantage of EVERY moment we have.  Period.  We learned very early that we never really know how long we have, so live it, love it, be and experience everything.

I have been reminded of this again this week.  My 14 & 1/2 year old Soul-Mate, love of my life, Blonde Pomeranian mix, Bella, was diagnosed with a tumor on her chest.  It sent me reeling...she is healthy and energetic and lovely and loving and charming and gracious and EVERYBODY who meets Bella loves her.  You can't help it.  We got her bloodwork back and it is really good, especially for an aging dog...this news made me cry.  I have hope.  I can't lose her yet, she sustains me...so we will fight this unwanted invader and I will love her and she will take her amazing, strong, gracious self into this and we will come out the other side.   If you have a Soul-Mate dog, you understand this.  If you don't, it might sound a little melodramatic and you might think, "Really?!  It's a dog.". I'm ok with everyone putting their beliefs on whatever their interpretation is...this is my reality and we have a connection that is unexplainable.  She has saved my life over & over & I've literally saved hers twice.  We are a team...I could never put our connection & effect on each other into words.

I am once again reminded, one simply never knows what's going to happen...why waste even one second!?

I bought a little framed piece, before I got her actually, but I always think of her when I see it since she came into my life..."remind thyself that what thou lovest is mortal, that what thou lovest is not thine own, but is given to thee for the present, not irrevocably nor forever, but even as a fig, or a bunch of grapes, in it's appointed season of the year"

Love.  Live.  Risk...y not?!  What have you got to lose?!  Looking stupid?!  Getting hurt?!  Whatever.  In the end, it is the things we miss, the things we don't embrace, the fear that gets the best of us that we regret.  Live.  Love.  Risk.  You simply never know...