Monday, May 21, 2012

Big changes unfolding...the Butterfly is flying!

I have been in this intense clean out, uncover, shift & create piece for the last few weeks. I had been wearing this butterfly necklace that was my mother's (which I hadn't worn in years) for this intense period. I put the butterfly on when the necklace I have worn for the last three years, my logo, broke one morning, as it had three times before.  I decided not to fix it this time.  I went to my necklaces to pick out another one.  I always wear one necklace that is a continuous sacred piece & symbol for me, no matter what other jewelry I have on.  Before my logo, I wore a celtic triad symboling body, mind & spirit.  I decided not to put it back on, but chose the butterfly instead.  I wrote an AMAZING blog about it yesterday morning, then accidentally erased it.  I was pressed for time & frustrated, my habitual reaction, so I decided to wait to rewrite it. Yesterday noon I allowed into my consciousness this awareness that I had not ever fully allowed in or acknowledged. The awareness is Pretty much that I don't know if I really want what I thought was my life's dream, because I think it was as big as I could imagine. I don't think it's as big as I can imagine anymore.  Well...Lo & behold...Last night, my butterfly necklace broke. I just moments ago had the awareness that maybe that means I'm done...out of the cocoon, ready to REALLY rock & roll now. I don't know what's coming, but I know I'm listening & paying attention to EVERYTHING, sensing my body & feeling what's right for me...implicitly trusting that I am headed in the right direction and being guided, in a very profound, profound way. I know truly listening to my body, noticing if I get a lighter or heavier, free or constricted, etc. sensation in any situation, my body, my Spirit, & my soul will never lead me in the wrong direction...