KNOW THYSELF

"Don't get confused between what people say you are and who you KNOW you are."-Oprah Winfrey I just recently made the decision to step away from a dream that has been my life dream for 16 years.  It came as somewhat of a shock to me when the awareness that it might not fit anymore literally just popped into my consciousness one day during a Nia class.  It came a day after I spent the entire day working on power...the definition of power...what I believe my power to be...what I really want and believe. It was just not flowing...I had issue after issue pop up in my quest for it.  It didn't feel light anymore, it completely felt heavy and like work.  In my Nia practice, I have learned, and I teach my students and clients to, listen to their body sensations, their thoughts, their feelings and what one's spirit really wants! I now understand that everything evolves, everything, always, all ways.  I now understand that me holding onto that goal was also keeping me small...keeping me in my box. When I decided to let it go, so many things that had been swirling around me, undefined, became defined and started to manifest rapidly.  All I have been able to do is stand in the middle of my Creation and simply listen to and follow what I'm feeling and where I'm being directed. I've also had many amazing, wonderful people show up in my life to support me, guide me, listen to me, assist me in so many beautiful ways it's simply astounding. Don't ever give your power away saying, "I don't know.".  You always know.  It is always there.  You always have the answer.  Allow.  Embrace.  Listen.  Own yourSelf and your own Personal Power.  It is always there, all ways, simply waiting for you to notice, to acknowledge, to be you for you, not for anyone else or for what someone else's idea of you or what you are supposed to be or do is...

Unimaginable

What do I write about this week?  What else is there with the unspeakable, unimaginable horror and tragedy that has encompassed our state this week?  How can a human being, patterned after love and internally coded for finding balance and living from love do such an unspeakable, unimaginably horrible act?   The world, people, the universe and everything in it are coded for finding balance and contain within it Yin and Yang.  Love and Fear.  Light and darkness.  Love and hate.  Strength and weakness.  Focus and disorientation.   God and evil. Fear, Darkness, Disorientation, Hate, Weakness, Evil.   It would seem these terrible states won this week, but have they?  The Human Spirit always seems to shine in horrible instances such as this.  People always band together, send out love, support, strength and grace.  It is being exemplified now as well. I have no words of tremendous wisdom.  No profound words of how to make sense of the senseless.   I watch and wait, stunned, just like everybody else.  I send out love and support and hope to the souls of those taken in this unimaginable tragedy, the people that are healing and waiting in hospitals or at home from wounds sustained in the incident and for the families of all of these people... I hold space for healing.  I hold space for the greatness that is within every being.  I hold space for the light and love that is within all of us...

Love your Body. Love yourSelf. Love your Life.

Right now, and in the recent past, I make my living as a Fitness Person, Personal Trainer, Nia Teacher, Pilates Teacher and Body-Mind Fitness class Instructor.  I have specialized in Corrective Movement, Post Rehab work, Body Re-shaping and getting people's Bodies and Minds connected so they are able to tell their bodies what they want them to do, instead of the other way around. I encourage people to find what works for them fitness, nutrition and health-wise, not just feel like they HAVE to do XYZ because someone told them they have to.  I am in a huge, huge shift of re-creating much of what I do. I will continue to do what I currently do and A lot of it has yet to be completely revealed to me. All I know is that it involves moving into being more of a Movement coach, public speaking and traveling, sharing my own personal story of my journey toward and constant work with balance and healing, retreats, collaborations with other healers, etc. My slogan is: Love your Body. Love yourSelf. Love your Life. To live your best life, you must strengthen, balance, honor and align your Body, Mind, Emotional Body and Your Spirit. Make your choices for you, who you are right here, right now; not who you were in the past or will be in the future, but who you are right here, right now. What brings you joy, pleasure, love, health & true fitness? I work with helping people grow towards this intention and their own goals every day! You are different than that other person...why should your work-out, your nutrition plan, your life look like anyBody else's? So I am seeing this as a mission statement of sorts.  Clarifying for myself, for you and for the Universe what I am doing and where I am heading.  I look forward to sharing all of this with you and standing in the middle of whatever unfolds for me, for you and for all of us!  Life is a fun journey...are you enjoying the ride or are you being dragged along kicking and screaming...all of your own doing, whether you know it or not!  Heehee Contact me and let's find out what potentials and possibilities are in there that you have yet to uncover!!!

Independence

This week we celebrated "Independence Day".  It made me start thinking about just how free all of us really are.   So many of us are slaves to so many different things:  our habits, our beliefs,  our jobs, other peoples' demands on us, our demands on ourselves, our pasts...on & on... Where does it end?  When do we start our lives?  Our selves? When do we get to find what we really want & what works for us?  Further more, how do we even begin? We begin with a desire, an intention, to find what we really want, who we really are, how we want to live our best lives!  Then, it takes stepping out of our comfort zone to find our own real magic.  There will be trials, missteps, experiments, fun, happiness, pain, trust, doubt...everything we could possible experience.  All of it is crucial for growth, to create our best selves, to create our best lives.  All of it.  It's crucial to get a higher fitness level; in order to get stronger, have more stamina, lose weight, change your physical body in any way, you have to challenge yourself.  It's crucial to get a higher level of emotional awareness; in order to become more aware and loving and able to connect with others, you have to have moments of pain and moments of unexplainable connection as well as understanding.  It's crucial to get a higher level of mental ability; you have to read and learn and experiment and question and change what you already know.  It's crucial to grow spiritually; in short, if you always do what you've always done, you will always get what you've always gotten, period.  What do you really want? How badly do you want it?  How much do you just know in your body and your intuition there's more for you?  FreeDance, change your route you  walk every day, seek out new experiences and new people, read, explore, seek, allow, listen, feel and sense!  Don't  allow fear to stop you from finding this for yourself.  You owe it to youself.  Fearless.  Lovefull!  Embrace, express and love you:  Body, Mind, Emotion and Spirit.  You will never regret connecting to your true, innate birthright of FREEDOM!

Dancing Through Transition

Transition in life.  Cha-Cha in Nia.  Similar & both have the same purpose, to take us from one step into the next, from one movement into the next.  In the Cha-Cha, it is done with one step forward then one step back.  In life, a transition can often look & usually feels like one step forward then one step back. The Cha-Cha is an extremely simple step.  However, many people trip themselves up & get confused.  As I have said for almost 16 years now, how one does Nia is how one does life.  Can you let go of your thinking, "I can't do this, this is impossible, I'm frustrated & overwhelmed" habit & just go with it?  Go with the simplicity.  Go with just what's put in front of you & work with it & IN it with Dynamic Ease & Grace.  What is your habit, do you just not let yourself have it & GO FOR IT?!  Or do you? When a transition, a stumble, a fall, a missed step in any form is put in front of u, do u see & feel it as this or do you freak out & automatically assume & tell yourself that you can't do it?  "It's just too hard!"  Optimist:  someone who figures taking a step backward after taking a step forward isn't a disaster, it's a Cha-Cha!--Robert Brault Love yourSelf.  "Friendliness towards oneself becomes friendliness towards another."-Harry Palmer, founder of Avatar. Live your life.  What do we possibly gain from throwing frustration, overwhelm & "I Just Can't Do It!" into our lives, into ourselves, in our WAY?!  Just think of all of the energy wasted on that, ick! Love your Body.  Love yourSelf.  Love your Life.

The dress rehearsal is over, time to play the real game!

Information gathering...always preparing...always making sure it's right & good enough.  What's stopping you from playing a bigger game, risking & just doing what you want to do?  Life is not a dress rehearsal, if you are always preparing & making sure & waiting to start so you can make sure you can do it, when do you actually do it?   It's imperative to do the work, imperative to have background information, imperative to have the desire to do it right to actually do it and do it to your absolute best!  HOWEVER, if you never actually put it into play, when do you join the real game, not just the practice before the game? Real change takes commitment & inspiration.  "“Whatever you can do or dream you can, begin it. Boldness has genius, power and magic in it!”  ― Johann Wolfgang von Goethe.   This means anything in your life:  changing your body, changing your career, creating relationships you want in your life...everything. Attention follows intention.  What is your REAL intention?  What do you REALLY want?  Uncovering & feeling what is REALLY true & REAL for you is the first part of real change & creation in EVERY part of your life.  Once you discern your own true reality & desire, you can create is by your attention, your desire, your decisions, your actions. Every choice we make, every action we make, has a result.  Attention follows intention, whether we know it or not. Learn to listen to your true you.  Learn to listen to your body.  Learn to listen to your body's intuition.  Learn to trust you...then put what you have learned into play!

Big changes unfolding...the Butterfly is flying!

I have been in this intense clean out, uncover, shift & create piece for the last few weeks. I had been wearing this butterfly necklace that was my mother's (which I hadn't worn in years) for this intense period. I put the butterfly on when the necklace I have worn for the last three years, my logo, broke one morning, as it had three times before.  I decided not to fix it this time.  I went to my necklaces to pick out another one.  I always wear one necklace that is a continuous sacred piece & symbol for me, no matter what other jewelry I have on.  Before my logo, I wore a celtic triad symboling body, mind & spirit.  I decided not to put it back on, but chose the butterfly instead.  I wrote an AMAZING blog about it yesterday morning, then accidentally erased it.  I was pressed for time & frustrated, my habitual reaction, so I decided to wait to rewrite it. Yesterday noon I allowed into my consciousness this awareness that I had not ever fully allowed in or acknowledged. The awareness is Pretty much that I don't know if I really want what I thought was my life's dream, because I think it was as big as I could imagine. I don't think it's as big as I can imagine anymore.  Well...Lo & behold...Last night, my butterfly necklace broke. I just moments ago had the awareness that maybe that means I'm done...out of the cocoon, ready to REALLY rock & roll now. I don't know what's coming, but I know I'm listening & paying attention to EVERYTHING, sensing my body & feeling what's right for me...implicitly trusting that I am headed in the right direction and being guided, in a very profound, profound way. I know truly listening to my body, noticing if I get a lighter or heavier, free or constricted, etc. sensation in any situation, my body, my Spirit, & my soul will never lead me in the wrong direction...