Release, Repose, Reclaim

Release, Repose, Reclaim

Slow down.  Take care of me first.  Self-love and self-care.  My biggest lesson right now in my life.  My biggest lesson that was embedded deeply into me this weekend.

I Release the need to be doing, doing, doing and not BE-ing and Feeling.

I will Repose, rest, to give myself the genuine energy I need to create in my life, in myself and in my life.  To TRULY create, not to keep running and running and doing, the only rest being with collapse.

I Reclaim Me, in ALL of me, every aspect of me.

I did "Reclaiming Aphrodite" with Amrita Grace this weekend.  It was beautiful and nourishing and expansive and I just kept thinking, "This is how it is supposed to be.  This is how we are supposed to be together...this is how we are supposed to be!".  If anyone is ready to truly create the Release, Repose, Reclaim that I mention above, I highly recommend this workshop for softening into and trusting the Feminine within.

 We did the practice of Ah.  We practiced fully relaxing into the feminine and the Yin.  We sat in circle and reclaimed the space for ourselves and our sisters as a collective to BE.  To fully show up as we are, to bring our OWN particular gifts forward, whatever they may be, period.  I left Reaffirming the Intention I set on the Full moon:  relax into and slow down while remaining efficient and creating.  Patience.  But reaffirming in an even bigger, More expansive, more accepting, softer way.

I also more fully acknowledge that still afraid, TERRIFIED, in actuality, to fully show up and claim me as and in all that I REALLY am, as evidenced by the circling Yang I have had coming in and out of my life recently, showing up then disappearing, being present, not being present and completely checking out.  I will no longer sell myself short by "trying" to be open when I am, even subtlety, not really taking care of myself because I don't know what is coming.  Trust.

There it is again...Patience.  Trust.  The Yin energy is:  softening into what is, waiting, internal/inward energy, releasing, resting, taking care of and honoring self and others, being completely present to what is and what will be without expectation but simply attraction and drawing in by making a welcoming, loving space.  I want this more in my life.  I am going to have this more in my life.

If you ask, are you REALLY ready for the answer?

As I sit here after a day of excitement, connecting and collaborating with three powerful men who have become collaborative partners for work I am putting together and co-creators in this life I am having come together all around me, getting my completely overhauled website up with some AMAZING teamwork with my website designer, and doing some of what is needed in my daily life just to keep it running, now I go to do my weekly blog.

I sit here with calm, centering "new-agey" music on and my iPad in hand.  I am completely at peace.  I am happy with where my life is going and what is showing up.  I am ecstatic that the principles I, and spiritual teachers forever down the line have taught, are real and actualizing all around me in a BIG way.  I am in awe that once I let go of what I thought I really wanted, all manner of unseen forces went to work and people, events, chance happenings, random connections became indescribably intense and frequent and even more purposeful than EVER before, and EVERYTHING in my life has always fit one thing into the next, this into that, all a connected flow...

This last month has been huge for me.  I started it with cleaning out my diet completely.  At that time, I made a conscious choice that this month was going to be about me and my growth and the growth of my business.  I was letting go of anything that no longer serves me.  I have to say, what has transpired has been nothing short of awe-inspiring.  

I have a new relationship with my body:  really dropping into loving her on a deeper, more profound level than I have experienced before, with my choices, with the ways she feels and senses and carries me through life.  I have a new relationship with food:  for the first time in my life, I really feel like I have a good one, after years of huge, tormenting struggles.  I have a new relationship with what I will and won't accept in my life:  learned the same lesson many times, but each time a new piece and different nuance of it.  So many things feel like they have shifted, after many years of "work" and introspection and frustration and learning.  I simply had to let go of my steadfast belief in what I thought I wanted.  Really and truly let it go, on a profound, even down to the subconscious level.  I got another piece of it this week, in a different way.  I can't wait to see what happens next!

Ask yourself, and only if you are ready and able to REALLY receive the answer-because if you aren't, you won't get a real answer-what you need to release to bring in the new, the improved, the even bigger than you imagined.  What else is possible?  How can it get any better than this?  Ask the question then wait for the answer.  You will know it when it comes up.  You will sense it in your Body.  You will feel it in your Soul.

Patience

Patience.  

Not one of my strong points and yet with my clients working to learn something, many of them comment about how much patience I have.  Dichotomy?  Maybe.  

I want what I want when I want it.  I want situations that I am holding space for and/or creating to become real and true and manifested NOW.  I want what I see for myself and what I see myself doing in the future, my 30,000 feet wide plan, if you will, to be created already!  C'mon, what are you waiting for?!  I set my heart and mind  to something, I do it.  It is what it is.  I have a tendency to get frustrated if how I want something to look, or how I think it should eventually end up looking isn't right here, right now.

Patience and holding space and accepting things just as they are while waiting for what we are intending is a huge piece of the Yin, Feminine Energy.  We are all made up of the Yin and the Yang, Masculine Energy.   Nia teaches us how to balance these on a cellular level through movement.  In myself, the last few years has been very much a journey into the softening, yielding qualities of myself.

Many people say they see and feel it in my classes and in my dance.  Every step I take on this journey of self-growth and honing myself to truly honor myself, truly listen to my heart and soul's desire takes me more and more into the feminine, the softness, the fluidity of The Yin.  Right now, patience is especially huge for me, maybe not ironically, in a few areas in my life.  I work every day to train myself to be patient with myself and my life, just as I am patient with my clients.

I have to remember that everything has perfect timing.  It always does.  Everything is always exactly as it should be and should HAVE been when I look back.  Always.  In my experience, life is a series of steps...this fits into this fits into that, always perfectly.  Always.  One thing has to occur or be created or get cleaned up, etc., for the next thing to occur.  

I know this.  I have known it as far back as I can remember.  I still have a difficult time accepting and trusting in situations where I really, really want it...and I want it NOW!  

The other night/morning, I was awake at 4am and unable to go back to sleep...so I started pulling Angel cards and Healing Cards by Caroline Myss. One of them was:  LET GO OF TIME.   How much do you need to do today?  Must you fill every moment to feel useful or productive?  How much of your life is directed by time?  Answer these questions honestly.  

Again, what do I know?  It all happens perfectly, exactly when it should, that has been proven to me time and time again. I know this, and I still find it challenging to sit with something and let it unfold.  As one of my friends says, I am one of those people who prays, "please God, give me Patience and give it to me now!". I am a work in progress, in many ways...but I keep working and I keep trusting and I keep believing...I KNOW it will all be exactly what it is supposed to be and perfect, no matter what, and DEFINITELY not on my time-table, so I sit and I hold space and I soften into what is...as I hold space for what WILL be, if I just have Patience.

Brilliant, gorgeous, talented and fabulous!

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that frightens us. We ask ourselves, "Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented and fabulous?". Actually, who are up you NOT to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small doesn't serve the world. There's nothing enlightened about shrinking so that people won't feel insecure around you. We are ALL meant to shine, as children do. We are born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us, it's in Everyone, and as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people dot do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others. -Marianne Wiiliamson

Many of you have heard me read this quote in class. I find beautiful, inspiring and true.

Most of us go through our lives not really knowing how big our hearts, souls and ourselves really are. For many reasons, we play small. Somewhere along the way, we are taught that not being fully ourselves, fully authentic, fully present and not really asking for what we really want in our lives, on ANY level, will make others like us more. Many of us mold as best we can to "fit in". Some of us develop addictions that are ultimately to hide and drown out pain and fear and to keep us from fully showing up. Some of us start to self-sabotage ourselves, and our bodies, in many many other ways.

What would happen if we all really DID show up, all ways, always? What if we had the audacity to really ask for and create the body we want, the life we want...our biggest, greatest, most expansive goal? What would happen?! Can you imagine how luminous and wonderful our lives and our world would be?! Can you imagine how we would all be if we didn't have fear, if we didn't hold back, if we were always our biggest, brightest selves?! What then?! Wow. What an amazing world we would have. Wow.

I realized recently that pursuing what I thought was my biggest and greatest life dream and goal was actually keeping me small and in my box. Wow. What a shocker! Since having this realization, I am stepping more and more into my power. My power as myself. My power taking care of my body. My power as a woman. My power within my work. My power within my life. My power in the world. It's huge and it's not necessarily an EASY road, but it FEELS expansive and right within mySelf and in my Body. It's also amazing how things are just showing up, with ease and joy and grace, not with the force and difficulty that was dominating my life previously. It really is amazing what shows up if you simply embrace you, as you REALLY are, allow whoever you are, whatever you are supposed to do and who you are supposed to be. So what's stopping you? What's keeping you in fear? What's keeping you self-sabotaging? What's keeping you from TRULY shining and being big?

Ask yourself these questions. Listen to the answers. Feel for what feels big and expansive, real and light to you in your body. What have you got to lose, except whatever is holding you back? What have you got to gain? Everything.

Do u believe u have the power to change your body AND your life?

I read this post on Facebook recently and it rang so true for me.  So many people have beliefs that hold them back from being their biggest and fullest selves and living into their fullest human potential as well as TRULY owning their power.  I decided to take it a step further and share these things connected with the habits and body patterns I see in people that exemplify these beliefs on/in the physical plane.

Here are the top 10 ways people give away their power:

1. Asking others what they should do.

2. Thinking God decides who gets what.

3. Worrying about how their dream will come true.

4. Thinking they have dues to pay.

5. Attaching to unimportant details and outcomes.

6. Believing in soul mates.

7. Thinking karma or spiritual contracts are absolute.

8. Fear of anything, especially falling in love.

9. Waiting for their ducks to line up before acting.

10. Choosing to be unhappy.

Here are the ways we mirror the giving away of our power in our bodies:

1.  Not listening to what they truly want to do for movement and fitness but 

    only doing what they "think" they should do or someone else tells them they 

    should.

2.  Thinking their genetics are predetermined and they can't change anything.

3.  Worrying about doing the "best" workout, burning the most calories, 

       thinking they have to be perfect on their diet or none of it will do any good.

4.  Thinking they have to kill themselves to change their bodies.

5.  Always worrying they aren't doing it "right".

6.  Believing someone else knows better than them in regards to what they 

       need or want.

7.  Thinking they are stuck in whatever rut they are in and not taking the time 

      Or having the initiative to change it.

8.  Fear of just getting started.  Fear of failing, so they just don't take a 

       chance.

9.  Always waiting to start the workout program or diet tomorrow.

10.  Choosing to believe they will never change, their bodies will never change, 

        There is a right or wrong way to move your body and they don't know how 

         So they just stay stuck.

How do you stop yourself from being successful?  How does it show up in your body?  How does it show up in your life?

Be brave.  Take the first step.  Ask for help.  Listen to yourself.  Listen to your body.

Understand the truth, little bird, and you will soar.

Cleaning out the gunk

I've been doing a dietary cleanse for the last two weeks.  I just felt like my body was getting really heavy, was getting too full of gunk.  

I've had so much happening lately and I just felt like it was all sitting in my body, like my body was holding onto so much and something needed to change.  

I had been eating too much and drinking too much wine since Bella was diagnosed with Mass cells in a fatty tumor on her chest.  I have cut out wine, carbs, sugar, dairy and fat and I feel so amazing.  My body feels lighter and I am much more clear.  I am doing it for 3 weeks and I might do longer.  I will see how I feel in another week.

I am working on so much in my life, I have so much evolving and I feel like I am making decisions and choices from a very clear, all me place now.  I made the choice to make this time all about me, my business and my growth, which are actually all the same thing in different reflections.

What we do with and in our bodies effects and reflects in everything in our lives.  Take care of it, find your balance, listen to it, give it lots of movement in many different ways, pay attention to what your body is telling u.  

  

Everything is always a choice.  You choose.  You decide.  Make good choices for your health:  body, mind, emotions and spirit.

Love your Body.  Love yourSelf.  Love your Life.

What if you could choose to live in Joy and Appreciation in your Body?

What if it's ok to have a sense of peace and joy and appreciation with and in our bodies?  What makes us think and feel it's not ok?  What happened to us to make us not like ourSelves and our Bodies?  

We hold everything in our bodies.  EVERYTHING.  Everything that has HAPPENED in our lives, everything that is HAPPENING in our lives, everything that IS GOING TO happen in our lives.  Our bodies r simply the expression of & how we sense what our souls r doing.  

The famous quote is:  "we don't have a body with a soul, we are a soul in a body...". I believe it is attributed the amazing Wayne Dyer.  I also sometimes refer to your Body as your Earthsuit.  As I understand it from "Conversations with God", we don't know y we experience & go thru what we go thru...we chose it for SOME learning, something we don't & may never understand.  We could have made an agreement in a past life, in the soul realm, unconsciously in this one...who knows...it is simply our job to learn with and from it.
We sense everything in our bodies.  We are wired to get it in our bodies first.   Our bodies are our greatest source of connection to Spirit, to other people, to the Earth...they give us so much...why are we so hard on them?

We are our bodies, most spiritual traditions have taught us that we are not.  We are also bigger than our bodies, souls are limitless and our bodies are contained within the bigger totality of us.  If we are limitless, why can't we decide what we want to create in our bodies as well?  

What if you could choose?  What if you could decide what you want to do with your body?  What if you could choose how you feel about your body?  What if you could release judgements, yours and others', and really live in joy and appreciation and SENSATION as we are designed to be and why we are given bodies to do it? 

What could you create and how much more would you love your life AND your body?  What else would be possible if you could just live, in your Body, 

Loving everything, simply being with everything, creating what you want and doing it all with Love and Appreciation for it ALL?