willingness

Letting go. It might not look like I thought it would look. Willingness. These seem to be the themes of my year, so far.

Lots of things seem to not be fitting anymore. Lots of things I thought I knew for sure are not as I expected in any way at all. I read the daily thought I get from an organization called "The School of Deepening." a few days ago and the subject was on "Thinking". It said, basically, when u think about something and play a situation over and over in your mind, it takes you out of your life and your experience and your flow. I appear to be being asked repeatedly to not think and to stay in the flow.

I'm in the transition process of: working with an amazing Coach, William Sumner, on fully stepping into my greatness; I am doing a food clean out after the holidays with wine, sugar, carbs and fat; I am in the process of ending a relationship that just isn't what I want, no matter how much i want it to be, that I have been involved in for the last 7-9 months, off and on; I am adding a whole new component to my business and hopefully my income making possibilities for the future; I am stepping into and loving the flow of the river and letting go of the fear that inevitably still pops up every once in a while. Lots of concious and unconcious discreating and letting go.

I strive to stay out of thinking about it all too much. I strive to go with what is presented to me and to stay with what feels good, light and effortless in my Body and Soul. I strive to trust above all, knowing that the Universe is ultimately responding to me and what I'm putting out there and doing..it is always my choice to show up and dance, no matter what, or to hide and shrink from fear of pain and failure.

I choose life. I choose love, gratitude and acceptance. I choose living my life fully, no matter what. No matter what I have to bring in, experience or let go of...

EnJoy Every Day!

Enjoy Every Day that you have.

Do you live to EnJoy every minute and live to your fullest or do u always live in fear of or simply focused on the future or immersed in the issues, mistakes, memories of the past?

Why not take full advantage of every moment of this life that you have?  You don't win points by being a martyr or by living in regret, you simply lose precious time in the life you have.  Take care of your body. Take care of YourSelf.  Spend time with friends, family and amazing people who enrich your life every day.  Practice Gratitude.  Practice Love.   Dream big.  Take advantage of once in a lifetime opportunities.  Be spontaneous.  Plan.  Ask for what you want, expect it to happen and trust that it will!

We are all given one life, at least one life that we are aware of right now.  Seriously what is the point in not taking advantage of everything she has for you to play with and in?  

This time of year is all about Love and Possibilities.  It is all about remembering the beautiful people we have surrounding us every day.  It is about the Love and Light we have within us and in our lives every day.  It is about Giving of ourselves.  I LOVE this time of year.  It makes me Happy.  I love the decorations, all the colors, Christmas Lights...all that it all represents...

I strive every day to have this in my life and to share it with as many people and out into as much of the world as is at all possible.  How do you live your Life?

Live, EnJoy, Express, Ask, Expect, Create, Live!

What is the Greatest Lesson that you have had in the last year that you are thankful for?

What is the Greatest Lesson that you have had in the last year that you are thankful for?

I have had so many I can't even count.   Really.  My life looks, feels and is completely different than it was last year.  The amazing people who have come into my life, my life dreams, my possibilities, my relationships, almost everything, except I that I still live in my house and have my dogs, the best friends I have ever had in my life, Bella and Rocco.  I am ever so thankful they are with me and for the blessings they bring into my life, especially my angel girl, who I was terrified beyond imagination I would lose this past summer.  Her still being with me and completely rockin more than she has in years is DEFINITELY what I am most thankful for in my life, period.

As far as the greatest lesson in the last year that I am most thankful for, it has to be my finally, after literally a life of exploring, expanding and becoming more and more me, REALLY understanding in all of me, Body-Mind-Emotions-Spirit, what Personal Power really means.  Unexplainably HUGE for me and my growth.  Huge.

Power-such an absence of external restriction and limitation that it depends only upon the inward determination of the subject whether or not it will act.

Really?!  That's what it means?  That's why people have called me such a powerful girl and woman my whole life?  Oh my goodness.  Bam.  I got it.  It alchemically changed me.  Not long after, I decided that what I had thought was my life's dream was no longer my dream and not as big as I could imagine, or be!  Wow.

" Until one is committed, there is hesitancy, the chance to draw back, always ineffectiveness. Concerning all acts of initiative and creation, there is one elementary truth the ignorance of which kills countless ideas and splendid plans: that the moment one definitely commits oneself, then providence moves too. All sorts of things occur to help one that would never otherwise have occurred. A whole stream of events issues from the decision, raising in one's favor all manner of unforeseen incidents, meetings and material assistance which no man could have dreamed would have come his way. Whatever you can do or dream you can, begin it. Boldness has genius, power and magic in it. Begin it now!". --Goethe

It is absolutely true.  When I had this realization of what personal power really means, my whole life revolutionalized.  Everything.  The people who came in to help me do things I had no idea I needed to do and get to places I had no idea I am going.  The dreams.  Where I do my work.  How I see my work.  How I See my life.  How I feel.  How I feel about, see, understand and get EVERYTHING in my life.  

I am eternally grateful to Harry Palmer, founder and creator of Avatar for creating this impeccable, powerful and direct definition.  It changes so much for me in every way that I can't even begin to express the Gratitude I have for it.  Truly understanding and owning your own personal power changes EVERYTHING.  Everything.

Body Mind Aligned

You are confined by the boundaries that you set yourself.  The mind creates the cage.  Set yourself free and move out of your comfort zone! ~Mhar

Our minds are a powerful force in our lives.  We run so many things through our minds that we don't even know we have running within us.

We store old memories in our minds.  We store beliefs we didn't know we have.  We have thoughts that we unconsciously operate from.  We have limitations we didn't know we had put on ourselves stored in our minds and our subconscious. When we start to unlock these and work with clearing things holding us back that we had no idea were even effecting us in any way, our lives, our bodies, everything, can change.

I work with people every day, through my one-on-one work with people and through all of my classes to challenge, honor, notice and either move through or better integrate all of the things that hold us back in many ways.

When we learn and shift something on a cellular level, we learn and shift It within our minds and ourselves.  When we shift it within ourselves, we most certainly will shift it within our lives.  

When was the last time you thought you couldn't do something but had no idea why you felt that way?  Did you listen to it to find out what the message was for you?  Did you brush it aside and do it anyway?  Did you just give up, regretting that you gave up, when you know you could have possibly done whatever it was, but you somehow unexplainably just gave up?

Next time, try it.  Do it anyway.  Ask questions.  Challenge yourself.  Know that you can or if you really can't, listen to yourself to find the reason and honor it, rather than just giving up.  Doing new things is just like working out, it takes new muscles, it takes getting stronger, it takes getting out of your comfort zone sometimes, but sometimes, just sometimes, maybe all of the time, it completely worth it in the end.

To Be Present...what does that mean?

Presence:  full attention, awareness and participation in the moment.

We hear the concept of "Being Present" talked about a lot.  It can often have a "new-agey", non-substantive quality to it.  What does being present MEAN anyway?!  

When I got the above concept, it was huge for me!  It is SIMPLY having full attention, awareness and participation in a situation, but even greater, in everything I do in my life, every moment.  It is taking in every experience, every sensation in my body, every knowing within myself and my soul...simply being with and completely IN everything in my life.

So many times, so many of us are not present in any situation, much less everything in our life.  It is sometimes easier to remain closed up in a little ball...it is sometimes easier not to be vulnerable with others and completely care and connect with who they really are and to simply stay behind one's veil.  It is easier to not listen to your body's knowing, heeding it's aches and pains or to fully experience and feel what is being shared by it through sensations.  It is easier until it is not...continuing to live this way cheats you and it certainly cheats those in your life and in situations with you...

Love your Body.  It has many, many gifts and messages for you.  It in and of itself is a gift.  Take care of it.  Cherish it as sacred and special.  Honor and listen to it, it is the only one you will get and it is a gift to live in this earthsuit.

Love YourSelf.  You are unique and amazing and the only YOU there will ever be.  Celebrate it, don't move to shrink or hide or fade or fix it, b present and fully, absolutely, totally YOU.  

Love your Life.  Live in full attention, awareness and participate in everything you have created and been handed.  Why not?!  Why hold back?!  Why BE anything except completely, fully, lively IN your life?!

Release, Repose, Reclaim

Release, Repose, Reclaim

Slow down.  Take care of me first.  Self-love and self-care.  My biggest lesson right now in my life.  My biggest lesson that was embedded deeply into me this weekend.

I Release the need to be doing, doing, doing and not BE-ing and Feeling.

I will Repose, rest, to give myself the genuine energy I need to create in my life, in myself and in my life.  To TRULY create, not to keep running and running and doing, the only rest being with collapse.

I Reclaim Me, in ALL of me, every aspect of me.

I did "Reclaiming Aphrodite" with Amrita Grace this weekend.  It was beautiful and nourishing and expansive and I just kept thinking, "This is how it is supposed to be.  This is how we are supposed to be together...this is how we are supposed to be!".  If anyone is ready to truly create the Release, Repose, Reclaim that I mention above, I highly recommend this workshop for softening into and trusting the Feminine within.

 We did the practice of Ah.  We practiced fully relaxing into the feminine and the Yin.  We sat in circle and reclaimed the space for ourselves and our sisters as a collective to BE.  To fully show up as we are, to bring our OWN particular gifts forward, whatever they may be, period.  I left Reaffirming the Intention I set on the Full moon:  relax into and slow down while remaining efficient and creating.  Patience.  But reaffirming in an even bigger, More expansive, more accepting, softer way.

I also more fully acknowledge that still afraid, TERRIFIED, in actuality, to fully show up and claim me as and in all that I REALLY am, as evidenced by the circling Yang I have had coming in and out of my life recently, showing up then disappearing, being present, not being present and completely checking out.  I will no longer sell myself short by "trying" to be open when I am, even subtlety, not really taking care of myself because I don't know what is coming.  Trust.

There it is again...Patience.  Trust.  The Yin energy is:  softening into what is, waiting, internal/inward energy, releasing, resting, taking care of and honoring self and others, being completely present to what is and what will be without expectation but simply attraction and drawing in by making a welcoming, loving space.  I want this more in my life.  I am going to have this more in my life.

If you ask, are you REALLY ready for the answer?

As I sit here after a day of excitement, connecting and collaborating with three powerful men who have become collaborative partners for work I am putting together and co-creators in this life I am having come together all around me, getting my completely overhauled website up with some AMAZING teamwork with my website designer, and doing some of what is needed in my daily life just to keep it running, now I go to do my weekly blog.

I sit here with calm, centering "new-agey" music on and my iPad in hand.  I am completely at peace.  I am happy with where my life is going and what is showing up.  I am ecstatic that the principles I, and spiritual teachers forever down the line have taught, are real and actualizing all around me in a BIG way.  I am in awe that once I let go of what I thought I really wanted, all manner of unseen forces went to work and people, events, chance happenings, random connections became indescribably intense and frequent and even more purposeful than EVER before, and EVERYTHING in my life has always fit one thing into the next, this into that, all a connected flow...

This last month has been huge for me.  I started it with cleaning out my diet completely.  At that time, I made a conscious choice that this month was going to be about me and my growth and the growth of my business.  I was letting go of anything that no longer serves me.  I have to say, what has transpired has been nothing short of awe-inspiring.  

I have a new relationship with my body:  really dropping into loving her on a deeper, more profound level than I have experienced before, with my choices, with the ways she feels and senses and carries me through life.  I have a new relationship with food:  for the first time in my life, I really feel like I have a good one, after years of huge, tormenting struggles.  I have a new relationship with what I will and won't accept in my life:  learned the same lesson many times, but each time a new piece and different nuance of it.  So many things feel like they have shifted, after many years of "work" and introspection and frustration and learning.  I simply had to let go of my steadfast belief in what I thought I wanted.  Really and truly let it go, on a profound, even down to the subconscious level.  I got another piece of it this week, in a different way.  I can't wait to see what happens next!

Ask yourself, and only if you are ready and able to REALLY receive the answer-because if you aren't, you won't get a real answer-what you need to release to bring in the new, the improved, the even bigger than you imagined.  What else is possible?  How can it get any better than this?  Ask the question then wait for the answer.  You will know it when it comes up.  You will sense it in your Body.  You will feel it in your Soul.